job searching is making me peaky

[imaginarycircus]

I got an email back from a small local college saying that I wasn't in the running for the teaching/admin job they had -- but I could apply to be an adjunct. I guess I could draw up my CV and start applying at the dozen or so local colleges and universities to be an adjunct instructor. But oh god. I will never make enough money to get buy unless teaching a class is an extra thing I do on top of another job. And it takes so much time.

Blergh. I have been looking for a job for five months. I even tried to get temp work. I have never had trouble getting temp work before.

I'm on hold after a third interview with a very nice non-profit org. They have to interview other people now. And I so want to get discouraged. I want to feel sorry for myself and get drunk at 11am and go to the movies. And then eat chocolate cake and feel disgusting and ill. But I am not going to do that.

I'm going to write up my CV, and apply to be an adjunct. I'm going to sweep through google reader and see what jobs have been posted. Then I am going to go back to combing university websites, local magazines sites, local publishers. Maybe even local literary agencies. And I think I have to go to the coffee shop to do it, because the construction across the street is making my walls shake a bit. It is subtle but annoying.

I'm imagining my wind-horse soaking wet and shivering today. Maybe I can shrink him and put him in my pocket to keep him warm and dry. I dunno. I think I am getting carried away with that horoscope.

I had dinner with a friend last night who read this long article on hermaphrodites and she told us all about it and I can't stop thinking about writing a story about a person who impregnates themself. And I planned another 50 word story and two comic panels for the website who bought the last one off me. Maybe they will buy this one too? I don't know.

*flouders* I know I chose not to go to law school or business school or something because all I wanted to do is write. I tell myself this would have been easier in NYC because there are so many publishers and agents. I surely could have gotten some job. But we probably would have had to have moved to NJ to make David's commute easier and neither of us wanted to live in Jersey.

I'm not very good at the scheming and searching unless I know exactly what it is for. I had a lot of fun planning my wedding once I knew the parameters. Job searching feels like herding cats. I love cats, but I don't want to corral a whole mess of them together.

Oh thunder and lightning! Perfect for walking...

Comments

[lilaia.livejournal.com]

That is ridiculously low! I'd say keep it in your back pocket for now - as anam_cara says a lot of the time it's who you know. It might be better to do a semester as an adjunct (could you teach two classes during the semester?) and see who you meet - the contacts might be worth it long term.

But it also depends on what you want to do next, if you want to teach more or if you want to have a "whatever" job that gives you time to write or if you want to do something else.

[imaginarycircus.livejournal.com]

My plan is to get a job I can stand to do for the next year or so. To keep writing and trying to get short stuff published and finish a full length manuscript. If possible I would like to pick up one evening class teaching writing somewhere. Then if I can find an OK place to teach once I have published a novel that might be OK. I don't forsee being a full time teacher any other way and it is a long shot that I would a) publish a novel and b) have it be well enough received that some school would offer me tenure. That is like a some day kind of maybe thing.

I just applied to be an Ed Asst. at Houghton Mifflin. I don't imagine I will ever hear from them because the job was posted on January 3rd. But there are very few Ed Asst. positions in Boston.

[lilaia.livejournal.com]

That sounds like a good plan and realistic about the near future. Ooooh an Ed Asst might be a cool job. You never know.

And you never know about the novel and teaching. I have a good feeling about that. :D

Take the weekend off from even thinking about jobs and all that. It's always a good time to watch cheesy movies.