imaginarycircus

If I could have any super power it would be the ability to see the macro structure of my novel at the same times as all the mirco elements, scenes, bits of dialog. Because then getting the pacing and overall structure right would be so much easier. I'm stymied today.

Splitting the POV has made the first half of the novel take up way more space than it did before. This novel is probably going to be a little longer though I can see many good reasons to shorten the final third so that it takes up less space.

My synapses are not firing properly or something today. It's cold and rainy and I'm exhausted like I didn't actually sleep between eight and ten hours. I did, but I also kept waking up and apparently I was so restless David went and slept in the office. My biggest problem is that I am sore like someone beat me with a baseball bat in my sleep. And we have to go see a friend who is in the hospital and then go to a benefit for David's brother who has cancer. I haven't updated about him because I don't know what to say. He has several more months of chemo and we hope the surgery and treatments bought him some extra time. We're beyond hoping for remission. (Yeah, you never know. But I've been that route before and when it doesn't work out... ugh.)

I wanted to see kairos103 today too. She's in Boston and I was really looking forward to seeing here and touring the MFA with her because her museum brain is so cool. But I'm too busy and way too sore. Now I have to go make a double batch of cookies for this thing and hope a hot shower will loosen up my back and hips enough that I can get through this benefit tonight. I think its just music and drinks and a silent auction thing. All I want to do is crawl back into bed and cry.

Also I can't think of anything to plan for the end of September so I have something to look forward to as opposed to just brooding about the 13th anniversary of my mother's death. I'm drawing a total blank. Not a good sign when I can't think of anything. I'll have to do some research.