imaginarycircus

I'm somewhat through chapter 34 of 39, which is 87% and I don't even know what to say at this point. I've made some rather major changes and I don't know how they fit yet. I'm so tired and flourish made me drink many drinks and now I need to lie down.

Someone on my flist (I'm being vague on purpose--she can out herself if she wants to, or not) posted about the Stewart/Colbert Rally to restore sanity and/or fear and said that she found that particular use of "sanity" ableist. I've been going round in circles and I just don't know what to think.

Sanity is clearly set up in opposition to fear mongering in this case. So that right there made me think they don't mean sane as in mentally sound or healthy. They meant sane, as in reasonable and rational. But can you use those words without clipping mental illness as you pass by?

I have a long history of depression and anxiety. I have had those things warp my world view and screw up my ability to deal with normal life pressures and expectations. I've wept on the way to work because I felt like everyone could see how screwed up I was just by glancing at me. I have depression that will not go away and I may have to be on meds for the rest of my life in order to function. The thing is that I do not have the sort of metal illness that causes me to have delusions or really fractures my reality though I do think I have been very unreasonable at times when my depression was unchecked by meds--I have never been as disconnected from reality as my mother used to sometimes get when she was manic.

I think I really just don't find this particular use of "sanity" ableist, but I have this sneaking suspicion that I might be wrong.

Crazy old math guy just dumped a large glass of water into the laptop of the woman sitting next to me. O_o It missed mine by inches. Hello, ms back up! D:

The laptop is not working.

I've worked at least eight hours a day for the last three days. I've made progress that I am very happy about. YAY ME!



I'm on Chapter 38 of 39. So I need to lose some 2-4k of text. I think. Or maybe I just have a 90k word novel. :/

Some of the new text is a bit choppy. I have to finesse it or rewrite it. My brain is mush so I am off for beer and knitting with nice people.